My Final Post on Too Hot and my personal Holiday and Political thoughts

You generally find what you are looking for. Rather than pain, sickness and death I hope you can look for strength, a future and life.

 

Dude. You need to do something different to get out of your funk. Walk around the block. Mow the grass, rake leaves, pull weeds. Do at least one such task every day. Even small accomplishments can be healthfully cathartic.

You say no one depends on you so find someone(s) that would. You might not connect well for whatever reason with a lot of people, but I bet you would connect instantly with the dogs/cats/horses/turtles or any other animals at a rescue shelter. Make time to volunteer at such a shelter and you will find a whole new lease on your life, and theirs. If you like nature and animals, that might be a perfect fit for you and I bet you will build bonds that you never thought you could. Help abused animals build confidence in themselves and humans again. See some success stories when new homes are found for them. Recognize that no life or circumstances are perfect, not for animals, not for humans, but trying to help can give purpose. That might help you nurture other bonds with other people, too.

 

Get a dog. They’re magic

 

I have said a prayer for you and wish you well

 

I don’t want to sound harsh.. but it’s on you. Get up and find a purpose. Volunteer at a boys and girls club, do work for habitat for humanity, adopt a pet from a shelter.
Don’t focus on what you don’t have and what you might lose. Focus on what you might gain and what you have had.
Write your parents story down
Walk a small part of the Appalachian trail
You cannot and should not rely on others . Find your own way, your own purpose.

 

If your mother and father need help, please move closer to them. They need you!

 

Just a thought about your wish to find a significant other. Flip the script. Instead of focusing on the other person, focus on being the best "you". In other words, you may think "I want to find a woman who has XYZ qualities". Then ask yourself what changes can I make in my life to DESERVE a woman with XYZ qualities, flipping how you look at it. Also ask yourself, what can I do to ensure that I do NOT find such a woman. STOP doing those things. I do wish you well.

 

My wife is allergic to dogs. She gets shots in order for us to have two massive fur balls not to mention the option of hypoallergenic dogs that don't shed. I bitch about my joints. Ehlers Danlos is bad for guitar playing. Then I see videos of Django Reinhardt playing incredible runs with only two functional fingers. Just saying, most of us have been there but a defeatist mindset is generally the biggest obstacle...

 

First of all I would like to say the obvious - a permanent solution to a temporary problem is not the best way to handle most things. I've mentioned it maybe once or twice on here but I don't scream it from the roof tops or anything but when I was 3 years old my father killed himself. A few of my family members might as well have with regards to OD'ing as well. I can tell you with 100% certainty that you only move your pain and despair to others, it doesn't go away because you do. Those left behind are left to wonder why.. what could they have done to prevent it.. was it me? etc etc

There is always a reason to live, you just have to find what it is for you. I can't speak to not having a women in your life because I was lucky enough to find and marry my middle/high school sweetheart. Marriage isn't alway candy canes and puppy dogs either, especially if you marry a cuban women (but I digress). Maybe you need to try internet dating sites for that, I know several people who have long term relationships/marriages through that. My aunt has been married to her second husband for over 20 years now and they met on AOL.

 

I don't have dog allergies but those are very cute. Are they Border Collies?

 

Bernese mountain dogs. Can't say enough good things about them. Amazing family pets if raised well. Females generally around 90 to 100 pounds. Males can be much bigger. Gentle giants.

 

Go volunteer at a food bank or soup kitchen. You will see those that are in need and get satisfaction from helping the less fortunate. It will give you purpose and show you that there are others that are worse off than yourself. It might give you some perspective.

I wish you the best

Blessings

 

If your entire life centers around a political figure, yah, you need to walk away and find actual meaning for your life.

I mean this in all sincerity: feeling like you do would benefit from therapy. It sounds like you have deeper issues that need to be addressed… and that’s okay.

 

Good luck... Brown noise therapy helped a friend of mine. It brings her peace of mind. I'll use it, I like it. Very soothing.

 

interesting. I recently started listening to green noise for sleep. Just listened to brown. I think I'll take this over green....I found myself liking the lower freq ver of green, but brown is lower....I find that more relaxing.

 

I wonder if you’re depressed?
Have you ever tried calling the crisis center?
There’s a really solid one in alachua county.
I used to work there. You will always find a person to talk to anytime day or night. Excellent people on those phones.
Not only will they talk with you anytime…if requested, you’ll receive guidance for many types of resources.
For some people, hearing themselves talk through another can go a long way to finding peace.
I think you’re an interesting dude.
Hope this helps.

 

528hz frequency with soft rain.
963hz frequency with a low ocean roar are amazing for activating sleep.

I like the 963hz stuff best