Fight for your family, not yourself, Dawg. I had an experience earlier in life. I don’t want to relate it here. It’s deeply personal, but it is sufficient for me to relate to you that when your days are done, and that time will come for all of us, if you love the Lord with all your heart, you’ll truly understand that you fight for those who love you, not for yourself. Death is not a tragedy for those who love the Lord. It is a reward for a good and faithful servant, who fought the good fight and kept the faith in a world of suffering. I have no doubt that when the time comes, you’ll understand that you fought for those you loved, because, as for yourself, it will be glorious. Uplift those around you, and be a fisher of men while you still can. “Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in Me. In my Father's house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to Myself, that where I am you may be also.” John 14:1-3 “He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” Revelation 21:4 “Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints.“ Psalm 116:15